Five and a half years ago I was sitting in front of my doctor, after going through a crisis in my heart. I had been engaged to be married, and it came to an abrupt end. After several visits, this holistic doctor said to me, "On my way into the clinic a thought came to me. I think you need to share your life stories along with your music." I sat there dumbfounded...didn't he know that this was the last thing I wanted to do? My heart was bleeding! I just looked at him and said, "I appreciate your thoughts, but I can't do that right now."

I had no idea what the next five years would bring, but somewhere tucked in the recesses of my mind, his words were stored. Two and a half years ago, I was standing in a church worshipping, and the worship leader introducing the next song, said this, "before we sing this next song, I want to tell you what's behind the song." My heart began to race, and the words that doctor spoke, were dusted off and placed in front of me.The Lord spoke to my heart and said, "That is the name of your ministry." I grabbed a piece of paper and wrote down, "Behind The Song." But in my heart I thought, "What ministry?"  I went about the hustle of life, yes the Christian life, but hidden beneath the surface was the sadness of choices I had made, and the sorrows inflicted on me from many years ago. So I put the doctors words, and the Lords words back on the shelf.

One year later I was diagnosed with cancer. My life came to a halt, as it desperately needed to. The sorrow inside of me was  bursting over, and the barricade came crashing down. God has a way of using suffering to conform us, to bring healing into our souls, and to affect the lives of those around us in eternal ways. The healing that continues to happen in and around me is beyond description.

When Art Brown and Gerry Sommers wanted to do this web site I resisted, and wanted the privacy of getting through this journey. But that's not what my Father wanted, because He would reveal to me in time, that this was not about me. There are over 270 journal entries I
have written, that have walked though this season. They have been gut wrenching,informative, sad, happy, questioning, and have made my soul transparent and vulnerable, something it needed. Sharing the myriad of emotions and changes, you have graciously walked through this season with me. From the loss of friends due to cancer, souls being saved, lives have been healed, and God in His infinite wisdom, has used these stories. I am in awe of Him!

Over this time, He has gifted me also with songs that portray some of these stories, and I have been humbly blessed to spiritually stand back and watch as He, the Master builder has used them. Once again He has placed the ministry Behind The Song in front of me. The cobwebs are dusted off, the shelf has been removed, and I am now able to hold it with a heart that has been healed.

What is Behind The Song? It is life's journey, His story, my story and yours. We all have one, and I believe when we share them, healing is brought to the hearts of many.

Love,
Patty